The realization of Oneness should negate the sense of sadness when friends move on and no longer want to be friends. But I guess I am just not there yet. I still wish people could stay in relationship and connection in our diversity. But it seems only clones stay connected.

The concept that says, you have to be like me for me to love you is barbaric at best. We project the protected parts of us as the model everyone needs to be in order to feel safe and yet it is the fear of safety that causes this cycle in the first place.

I look at all the good times together. All the promises made and boastings of how we are one and will always be there for each other. Next thing that happens is they are gone as though they had never woken up to love and friendship.

I have just never been good at abandoning people. I also don’t feel the need to cling to people either. But a nice balance of simply being a safe place for communion together.

I am grateful for the moments of laughter and love, vulnerability and transparency that has transpired with the other versions of me as people that are no longer in my current conscious state of experience.

Maybe those other versions just needed what they needed and have moved on to source. Or maybe those parts are for other dimensions and lives and I am just becoming to conscious for this dimension.

Whatever you do, wake up slowly. Don’t rush the ascension process. Once you wake up from the simulation, you can’t go back to a simulation. Sometimes being asleep allows for more friends. Deprogramming from the Matrix can feel like insanity at times. Go slow and embrace life along the way. Even if it is a simulation.