The Narrow Path is like waiting on Death Row. When we kill the flesh, the body falls on its knees in repentance and we wait. Its lonely, its full of pain, its a struggle to keep the flesh dead.

I am not giving a sugared down doctrine of the church where everything is rainbows all the time, I am giving the doctrine of Blessings and Curses.

There are many blessings given to these flesh bodies, but they are all cursed to die. Killing the flesh is a spiritual act when the body comes off its knees in repentance the spirit does not.

At least for me it never has, I repent constantly, for the life I have lived. I came to Our Sacrificed Messiah who beat death and wait on my own.

Thats the only reason we are here in the flesh is to return to Our Father blameless. Thats who I am reaching out to people like me who despise themselves with a life fractured, damaged and full of shame.

The spirits we loved have went and gathered 7 more powerful spirits and although our flesh is not constantly on knees my spirit is, because it knows I am the one the darkness desires to make worse than I was before.

This darkness usually comes in the form of little compromises, They are powerful knowing to rejoin the ways of the world would remove much of the loneliness, after all,we are not expected to be perfect.

Maybe chalk these little compromises up to “its only a sin against the body and not the soul” But I already use that excuse too much anyway and thats just what it is an excuse.

The Narrow path is not Halleluyah to the flesh, it only knows all the broken pieces making us feel worthless and lonely, this flesh marked and scarred full of bad memories.

I know we repent of our sins and He can forgive them and wipe them away, but until hearing “good and faithful servant” we own these sins or else they would be wiped from our mind. Removing the need to be humble.

I know we cry constantly for all the pain given and received. I ask the Father to help us, the weak and the broken, we are not of this world, giving up the world for Yah, has caused everything we knew in our lives to be burned down and now we sit in the ashes.

Forgive us, for all that we are lacking as we wait on that last breath.

Psa 51:16 For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering.

Psa 51:17 The sacrifices of Elohim are a broken spirit: a broken and a crushed heart, O Yahuah, you will not despise.